why dont you do something?

2004-02-21 . 4:52 p.m.
a sAd dAe........

haiz...feeling damn sad..i dunno wat to say..wat to do..and wat to think..i felt useless...i felt that i never do the correct thing and always kanna scolding...when will i be correct...wo hui yi bei zi huo zai zi ji de si jie ma?..y am i so fragile?..why do i cry so easily..i haf stop myself from crying since i got into sec2..i oso cry when i rilli can't control myself..i use to tink tat when i cry everything will qian jiu me..no1 can stand a crying person..and i kept crying in primary school..but it makes my life more miserable..i used to cry 3 times a day..i was so damn emotional in primary..but as i get older i find tat tears are not worth to fall for any foolish things..i cry again today..this is the 3rd time i cry tis year..i cannot take scoldings from frenz...they are the most important thing i depend on now..

everytime __ ask me to sectional i will always try to do my best and i wan to leave good impression for them..but everytime i teach __ will juz sort of discriminate me..although i noe she din do it on purpose for __ character is like tat..but i still felt tat as a fren u should help each other and not making the situation worse..i dun wan to be discriminate by __..i dunno how to teach..i cannot take sacr..i dun wanna break down in front of the juniors..i noe tat __ is veri strong person..__ has a strong character which i dun haf..i am always a pesstimistic person who can't take stress...

i always pretend tat i am happy and put up a strong front..but deep inside my heart is crying like crazy..i am juz a puppet which haf the same expression on the outside..have u ever seen the true me..

i believe tat i have never been me at all..my mind is so complicated i can't think anymore..b4 i break down...

saveMEfromSORROWS
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